Today, Min even wore her favorite perfume, Chance by Chanel, which reminded me of our freshman year. I just realized I sound like a creeper when I read the last sentence but that's what I am....To Min and Skim, I will be a creeper...I'm not interested in others. Hmph.
I can remember our freshman year like is was yesterday. I was scared shitless on the first day of school. Also, I was so nervous about making new friends. I can't imagine what I would've done if I didn't meet Min or Skim.
We're growing up so fast. The things we talked about since we met and the things we talk about now...we have matured so much and shared so many stories, ideas, problems, dreams, laughs, tears, and everything else. And I know that we will continue to grow and mature together as years go by.
Minnie, I know you'll do great in SF. Don't be scared. Our bodies may be distant but Skim and I are just a phone call away. I'll miss you to death and I'll be counting the days til I see your face again. Good luck in everything and I looooove youuuu (even more than Andrew).
Skimmie, you'll be closer in distance but I'll miss you as much as Min...Not seeing you OR Min at school or back at home is going to be such a let down. I'll see you as often as we can. I'm sure that everything will go smoothly for you soon and I know you'll do great in whatever is given to you.
I love you guys so much that I can't describe it in words. It's so sad but I know that it's a part of us growing and maturing. I look forward to the day all three of us sit together to talk and smile at each others faces. Again, I lavas you guys :) and I'll miss youuu. Don't replace me some other friend even though she/he might be better than me.
Good luck, my favorite girls. MK+SK+YJ forever- teeeheeeee:)
After coming home from work today (wait, wait....it's only PART-TIME at the cleaners again but I consider myself lucky to even have this job!) I intercepted a letter from the local nursing home addressed to my dad.
Thus, I have three words for you: aw HAIL NO.
First of all, my dad is not a grandpa (yet, and it would probably be a while until then) or even that old to enter a nursing home any time soon. And second, there is absolutely NO WAY he will end up in those sad, prison-communities that grown-up kids send their parents to when they get married/have kids and want to send cards during the holidays as a way to "keep in touch." That's not my idea of saying "Thank you" for everything my parents have given me while raising the complex human being of a daughter that I am for all these years. I probably won't be living in the same house as my parents once I get married, but ideally I'd want to live in at least the same state so that I can see them quite often.
But for the nursing home to send a letter about how a wonderful living community like theirs would be the right fit for my parents right now is just plain offensive. There is no need for my parents to be reminded that they're growing old, because they're not even that old! So I tore it up their nice little letter into nice little pieces and threw them away in each of the waste baskets we have around the house.
ugh, how dare they. HOW DARE THEY.
You know those websites that sprouted from fmylife.com like mylifeisaverage.com or mylifeisg.com? Well, I just found one that I really like - givesmehope.com - and I'm sure you'd like it, too (unless you're a total Debbie Downer, whomp whomp). Like on the other websites, some of the posts make you tilt your head like "what? no way that really happened." but with this one you still like it because it leaves you with a smile and that warm, fuzzy feeling you get when you hug a puppy.
There's no way I found this website on my own - I let other people find them for me because the only websurfing I ever do is check my email, check facebook, and occasionally catch missed episodes of Family Guy and South Park on Hulu. Plus, where do they find these new websites that are just about to become "the next Twitter", anyway? The only time I used to actively engage myself in finding the next best thing was back in the day when I'd search for underground alternative artists and listen to every track on every album they ever had. But because I've grown into somewhat of a lazy bum during my last year in college, my music taste has been limited to mainstream pop and rap, plus anything from the 90's.
And I only found out about givesmehope.com because I didn't delete a "facebook friend" while weeding out my list of (now down to) 500 because "he posts interesting links." I've kept a few others as friends because although we'd maybe hung out once or we'd shared a class together, he or she always has something interesting to share. And it couldn't be a better time to have cool websites to visit and think about world issues now that I've graduated and am looking for things to do other than job-hunting.
I want to get my own place and move the hell out of Dallas right now. Tensions between me and my parents have escalated much sooner than expected now that I'm not a student anymore and am now officially unemployed (damn this economic crisis!). It's only been a month since I've graduated college but they've already lost hope in me, saying I should probably look into nursing school instead of medical research (which is hypocritical of them to say because they were against it when I wanted to become a nurse a year ago saying "it just wasn't for me").
I love them to death, but I think it's damn well time to leave the nest.
gotta write about this, because none of us take pictures anymore!
The roomies (minus Skuo), Sewon, and I went tubing on the Guadalupe River yesterday despite the cloudy sky, but the sun came out every now and then and we were actually pretty hot. Since it hadn't rained recently, the water level was lower than usual. which is why we kept getting stuck in the rocks and got quite a workout trying to maneuver ourselves around/off of them. There were families of ducks swimming with us, turtles discreetly basking in the sun, and mosquitos feasting on my blood the whole time I was in my tube (what?!). After about two hours floating the river, we headed back to Austin for dinner at Kerbey Lane (we'd had Thai Noodle House next door for lunch earlier that day). I tried a veggie burger bc I thought it'd taste better since they make their own patties, but I ended up eating half the burger without the veggie meat. Yeah, it looked weird but tasted much better! Should have ordered the regular burger with real meat...anyhoo, I fell asleep in the car after eating half a bag of peach-Os (did you know it's actually made of APPLE juice, and not PEACH JUICE? dude no way...) and took a shower as soon as I got home.
I'm actually considering drawing a picture of this trip because we have none. If I do, I'll post it up. but I can get really lazy so don't get too excited.
A couple of weeks back, all the graduates, friends, and I went northgating and Jennifer asked...
J: Hey, Yuna. So, who do you like more...Min or Skim?
me: uhhh...
J: You have to pick one. who do you like better?
me: Man, that's such a hard questions. It's like asking you if you like your mom better or your dad.
J: (With a stern, serious face) My mom.
me: ......
I never knew Jennifer was such a hilarious person.
Why did we meet so late...why not during our freshman year?
I think I like my roommates and the sister apartment roomies a liiiiiiittle too much. heh-
This weekend, my roommates and I went to our last ring dunking parties. When I graduate, I know I will not miss the school work at all but I will miss all the people and things that we did together.
The entry that I am about to write may sound really gay and some of you might think, 'Yuna, you're such a kiss-ass to your roommates.' It is true, I am a little suck up in front of them but it's not because I need to impress them to be my friends. To me, they the ones that I really love, care, and respect.
- Late night talks...We used to start talking about random things whenever we gather around in the living room to study. I always ended up treasuring our conversations more than my school work. teehehe Sometimes, we ended up talking until Sewon and Andrew came in after finish playing Madden to tell us that it's 3 am on a school night. From our talks about relationships, I was busy taking mental notes about dating as lame as that sounds. I will need it. I feel very fortunate to have friends who I can cry to although I might look more hideous than Shrek and who I can trust and I respect very much.
- Scaring the shit out of them by popping out of nowhere...I might have been the only one who enjoyed this but I loved to scare Skim and Minnie. I don't know why I do it. I just like it.
- Movie nights...We weren't the crazy party people who always wanted to go out on the weekends. Rather, we love staying in with our buddies (mostly their bf's) to watch movies or TV. Andrew is like a drug dealer but instead of drugs, he has TONS of movies. He downloaded movies for us to pick from and connect his computer to the TV so we can enjoy the movie on his kickass TV.
- Delicious food...Spring rolls, steak, sam gyup sal, etc...ah....food. Andrew is a very good cook and whenever he cooks, I have to move myself to my room so I don't attack and steal his food. Min and Andrew's meal always looked like some kind of fancy restaurant food.
- Ray J, Tough Love, Animal Planet, Madden, Street Fighter...
- Nintendo DS...All of roomies had a DS and for my birthday, my roomies and friends got me a DS. Mario Kart and Tetris will always be my favorite games.
- Getting dolled up together before going out...
- Other things...Burger House, Wal-mart basket full of liquor, Red blanket with snowflakes on it in the living room, the bitch seat, huge-ass picture of min's face on the wall in the living room, poor doggy who was always out in the balcony across from us....and much more...
Well, roomies, I heart you guys and thanks for all the great memories. Also, if there were any things that I might have done without knowing, please forgive me.
I just got fucked by my physiology test.
Before the exam, this girl said she's going to go grab a drink after the test and she added that they should make the exam easier or something so she doesn't feel the need to go get drinks to not think about killing herself.
Actually, I think if I did get drunk after my phys test, I might even get bold enough to jump off of a cliff. Without alcohol, I won't have the courage to do that so I'm going to stay away from alcohol after my phys test.
Earlier today, I was calculating my Biochem grades and got really hot and nervous because I thought I won't be able to graduate because of this class. After that, I just paced around in my room, not studying for physiology. (I'm so dumb.)
I really hope I graduate. I don't even have plans for myself after graduation but I just feel like I need to graduate.
.......Ugh....what is wrong with me!
Lately, I have been picturing myself leaving Texas and living in a different city such as NYC, LA, DC, and etc.
I don't think it's just because I went to New York over this past spring break. I have been wanting to leave Texas for a while now. It's not that I am sick of my family, friends, or school (well, maybe a little sick of College Station now...). I think a part of me believes that moving off to a bigger, major city means success in my life. However, the other part of me knows that it doesn't work that way.
I would love to go to a graduate school or some kind of professional school in these cities. I guess that would be my goal for now. I don't even mind getting a decent job and moving there. I just hope I don't move there just to make myself happy and screw everything up.
Sometimes, I feel like me wanting to move is because I want to have a fresh start. When I first entered college, I was so motivated and excited to go through school and become a vet or whatnot. Now, I count the days til my graduation day by drawing X's on my calendar. I am so fucking ready get out of here. I just hope I pass all of my classes and graduate (Physiology is kicking my ass right now though). Anyways, I felt like I had a fresh new start when I first came to college and I feel like that's what I need right now. I guess you don't have to move away or whatever to do that but I just feel like I NEED it. Ever since I decided I don't want to be a vet, I have been confused, unhappy and less motivated. I think it might be because becoming a vet was my dream for about 20 years now and changing my mind and losing my goal of 20 years just left me in shock and confused.
I don't know....I'm still confused but I feel like I will snap out of it soon. I mean, I hope I do.
I hope I find something that excite me and motivate my life real soon. I wanna feel useful to this world...
I am back sooner than I thought.
I'm suppose to be studying my ass off for my test tomorrow but I can't seem to focus and study.
Lately, I havn't been able to focus on anything especially studying. I honestly don't know what is bothering me or what I need to do to clear my head and keep my focus straight on things that are crucial right now, such as my future.
Well, I guess some of the things that are floating in my head are related to my future....err actually they are all related to my future, come to think of it. I guess I don't know where to start to head the right direction?
Hmm...I don't know.
I should stop rambling on and go study. I guess that's a start..right? Doing well on the exam and graduating.
Ok, yea sounds good to me. I'll see you later.
